I wish I knew. All of a sudden, even my husband is counting calories. Weird, huh? But me? I’m still sabotaging my own success. I guess I’m in that place in the road where I’m afraid of success. The last time I had success, it blew up in my face. What about now? What is my deal? Why can’t I stay on program?
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I guess you can see by the previous date that I gave up somewhere along the way. I think it started with the stupid camping trip and got worse from there. While packing for said camping trip, I packed my measuring tools. They were unpacked for me by my husband. When asked about it, he said, “You don’t need those for 4 days.” Apparently, I did. It was a downward spiral for me ever since. My friend stopped going to meetings, so therefore, I stopped going to meetings. All this is NOT the cause of my demise. I alone am responsible for what goes into my mouth. I am the one who didn’t have a plan for food daily, let alone a plan B of what to do if plan A falls through.
What has driven me to fail? Myself, laziness, not caring about what happens to me.
I have to get myself out of this rut. Pray for me.
You believe that, don’t you? You believe me that I can eat just ONE of those 100 calorie Hostess thingies. You believe that I can only eat the one serving of Doritos®. That I can stick to my points and actually know what those points are? Yeah…sure…right.
Last week, I went by the rules and stayed within my 28 points. I lost a piddly .4. I have a bad day this week and decide, “Screw it, I’m going to eat!” And eat I did. It started off an okay day, nothing unusual, and then hammered into a day when hades broke loose. I ate at least three helpings of that dang Kashi Go Lean® cereal, 4 Hostess 100 calorie snacks®, 1/2 bag of Doritos®, 1/4 bag of Cheetos®, “And a partridge in a pear tree…..”.
I expected the worst on the scale Saturday. If I lost my 5%, I felt I truly deserved to after that day. As I stepped on the scale, I thought “around and around she goes, where she stops, nobody knows..” like the wheel for the Showcase Showdown on The Price is Right©. It did finally stop. On 234.2! I had lost 1.2 lbs after all! So, what was the lesson learned? Always face the music on the scale, no matter how bad you think you screwed up.
Sorry, I don’t have anything witty to put in the title today. It’s been 9 weeks ago today that I started WeightWatchers®, and I hit my 5% today! I weighed in at 238.6, making my total to date: 13.2. Now I have to get to steppin’… see, I kind of made this bargain with myself that I’d start walking AFTER I hit my 5%. Unfortunately, they gave us a sample of these Mint Cookie Crisp Mini Bars and let’s just say, I shouldn’t have ever bought a box. While they taste just like Girl Scout Cookie Thin Mints, they also are addictive. I must confess that I’ve eaten 8 of them. That leaves me with 7 points left for the day. What an idiotic thing to do!